1 Day Before Judgement Day...

I stand before him, the eyes of justice, one meant to uphold the arms of liberty and justice for all of those that believe in this great nation... I stand before him the one meant to uphold the laws of man, knowing well that the only man that can truly judge me is God himself, and for that matter I stand not in fear, but in mercy... I stand as a man for the first time in my life... I beg for my good fathers forgiveness, fore I have sinned... It's not the first, and definitely not the last... I stand before you, a changed man... One that is accepting of the punishment that I have in fact put myself in. I fear not what you shall impose, and ask that in all of your grace, I still have life, and a chance of happiness... I will stand up as a man, and fully accept what you have handed down to me, your son, as a gift, because through all of my trials and tribulations, I can look back and notice the change that has taken place... I am forever grateful for you love and understanding, and in your name I pray, amen...

These are my final thoughts the night before I head to court to find my sentence for my second offense... As much as I'm trying not to be nervous about what is to come of this mess, it still haunts me... I know there's jail time in the mix of things, but at the same time, what should I fear of a crime that I flat out committed? Is it wrong to not fear something because of a typo on a report that could abolish this? Is it wrong to beg for mercy? Does it make me less of a man? I know through it all, my friends have said not to worry, what happens, happens for a reason, and this I know, but there's still that inner-most sense of what is coming... I joined a statistic that I never wanted to join... I have finally manned-up to the fact that what I did was wrong, and I intend to do anything and everything in my power to correct my mistakes... I have had to sacrifice a lot because of this situation... I've lost a relationship with my parents to which I never really realized I do hold so dear... I'm sure I've lost the respect of some of my friends... I've lost a part of my life that I felt a sense of pride in... For a few short days, I lost my faith in God, which is something that I never intended to do... Thankfully, all that I can do is work to get that back... I can look at this in a positive way, accept my sentence, and move forward... Or I can slip through the cracks and lose it all... Anyone that knows me knows that I have always accepted a challenge, and I intend to fight this to the death... I am one man taking on the justice system... The justice system set forth by this great nation to convict the guilty, and find innocence in those willing to change their ways... I have no intention of letting go, and falling into a life I have never wanted, therefore there's no option but to "adapt and overcome" as Cub says... I just want to take this time to say thank you to those I know and love... Thank you to those I thought I lost faith in that never walked away no matter how big of a jackass I was... Lastly, thanks to those still in my life, that are there for my support... I will update tomorrow once I figure out what happens in court... As for now, it's time to get back to life, and dwell on the future and not the past...

We'll see ya...

The Quest For Life...

Recently, as not many of you may know, I was pulled over on my second DUI within a year. As we all know, the first one didn't go over that well with the parents, and there were times that were rocky at best, and borderline of me getting kicked out of my house and home. After much time taken away from the drinking/partying scene, I again returned to my stupid routine, and slipped up. As you can imagine, this didn't fly over very well with the "free living" with the parents. After the first offense, I was given the ultimatum that I had to discontinue hanging out with the people that I knew before, and start a new life with people that are "making something of themselves." I was rather confused as to what exactly "making something of themselves" actually entails. Before it was people that have graduated college and have a job. After I hang around with a group like that, and I got in trouble on my own accord, my parents blamed the people that I was hanging out with because "they're losers that spend their entire lives in a bar..." And if I was to continue hanging out with those people, I would turn out to be like that. COP OUT! I made the decision to drink and drive, and I am paying the consequences.

During the course of my first DUI, I was constantly beat up by my parents, calling me "scum of the Earth, an embarrassment, a criminal," etc... My parents threatened to the throw me out if I had another one, and of course, true to their word, my mom attacked me Sunday afternoon, and told me if I'm not going back to school this quarter, then I could get out, because they're not going to let me just live my life there for free. The look on their face when I walked out was almost priceless, because I don't think that they realize that I'm never coming back. I say that because I feel the only major flaw I've had in my life is them holding me back from being who I want to be. I'm not willing to sacrifice living my life just because I have made some mistakes. I'm not going to sit around a house with them and get beat up physically and emotionally, because no one deserves that. I'm an adult, and at times, although I don't act very mature and make grown up decisions, but it's about time for a change. I stepped out of the house and was greeted with a fresh breathe of air. I walked away from the only house and home I've ever known, and was finally out on my own.

Walking down the street with nothing but 2 small bags packed with clothes, and 2 bags of shoes, I walked with a different sense of pride. I felt like I was adventuring out to something new, something I've never done before. Although I had a sense of exactly where I was going, Chris and Sara's place, I still knew that this time it was for real. This time I wasn't turning around to talk to my parents again and beg for mercy... This time I was finally saying goodbye for quite possibly the last time. I had lived under their tyrannical (®) rule for so many years and just couldn't stand the oppression that I was withstanding for so long. I had every aspect of my life constantly judged and set forth for me like a slave. I was able to seek refuge in the helpfulness of all of my friends, whether it was a "good luck" or "you're doing the right thing," or in my case, an "I got you man, you can crash here as long as you need too..." Although I don't like being in the situation because I would like to be able to fend for myself, but financially I'm strapped with the upcoming court date and such. I'm just so thankful that I have true friends that would give up their time, home, etc just to help me out. It goes to show how true your friends are to you, and for them to say, "I would hope that someone would do the same for me in your situation," just goes to show me that this is the person that will always have your back no matter the situation. I have a great girlfriend that time after time impresses me more and more with how much she can handle and still show consideration for what's happening in my life. I have friends that are just as great as Chris and Sara, and I would not give them up for anything in the world. I'm so glad that for once in my life, I took the high road, and went against the grain and ventured out into the unknown, taking the road less traveled. I would just like to say thank you again to everyone that has offered help, rides, etc, and just overall shared kind words to help me through this rough patch in my life. I am trying my best to accept responsibility for my actions, and just knowing that I have the backing of so many people is really, truly helping me through this.

As for what the future holds, I'm not really too sure. I know that currently I do not have the money to find a place to live just yet until I go to court, sell my car, buy a new clunker, etc... I anticipate a big life change however. I've been talking with a few people, and I am seriously considering possibly leaving the country for a year to teach English oversea's or something possibly among those lines, or possibly joining the armed services, but nothing is in stone yet. I will have to see how things go in court on September 22nd. I really do appreciate everyone's thoughts and prayers, and everyone knows when they are in a bind, don't hesitate to call me, my phone line is always open...

Without Him, Who Do We Have...???

Recently, some mistakes I've made in my life have made this song more meaningful to me, and although I don't usually take rap music for more than what it is, DMX has a song that reminds me of what I'm going through inside... (The parenthesis represent God's voice)

Please give me the strength I need to live...
Bear with me...
Amen...
We each walk the path, that we've chosen...



I'm ready to meet him
Where I'm living ain't right
Black hate white
White hate black
It's right back
To the same fight
They got us suspecting a war
But the real war is to follow the law of the lord
Lord, you left me stranded
And I don't know why
Told me to live my life
Now I'm ready to die
Ready to fly I cry, but I shed no tears
You told me you would dead those fears, it's been years
Snakes still coming at me
Just missing
Sometimes I think all you doing me is just listen
I thought that I was special
Thats what you told me
Hold me
Stop acting like you don't know me



What'd I do so bad that it sent you away from me
Not only sent you away, but made you stay away from me
(My child I'm here, as I've always been, it was you who went away, And now are back again, what did I say?)
Follow your word, and be true
(What did you do?)
Well, what I wanted to do...
(What have you seen?)
Darkness and hell at a glance
(What do you want?)
All I want is another chance



(Just because you went away, my doors are not locked, wanna come back home, all you gotta do is knock)
Ya see, I left home a boy, I returned as a man Full grown, and I'm still not able to stand
(I gave you a hand)
Well...but I was looking the wrong way
Figured out the plan, then I started to pray
And that prayer, took me from here to over there
Back to over here
Now they got me like where?
Do I belong?
Do I fit in?
Things on my mind, where do I begin?
It's easier to sin, but it hurts my heart
I'm really tryin' to win, so where do we start?
(Thou shall not steal)
But, what if he stole from me?
(Thou shall not kill)
But what if he's tryin' to kill me?
(Thou shall not, take my, name in vain, no matter how hard it rains, withstand the pain)



Our father, who art in heaven
I'm not ashamed to ask for guidance, at 27
No longer afraid to knock on your door
Not scared anymore to lose my life in the war
After what I just saw, I'm ridin' with the lord
Cause I really can't afford to lose my head by the sword
And now that I've seen, what I need to see
Please take me, where I need to be
(What have you learned?)
It's better to tell the truth than to lie
(What have you learned?)
To love my life until I die
(What have you learned?)
Violence isn't always the key
(What have you learned?)
You can't always believe what you see
(What have you learned?)
It's better to forgive and forget
(What have you learned?)
Give as you expect to get
(What have you learned?)
That I can't go on without you
(What have you learned?)
I must have been a fool to ever doubt you...



I must say, it's a powerful song, that seems very true to life, especially for me... It seems that upon the occurrence of events, not only have I let myself down, and my friends and family, but along the way, I have forgotten what it means to let the Lord down. I have lost faith in the things that have founded what I was, and what I've become... I lost my vision of becoming a better person, and in turn, left everyone in the dust. I feel like I'm on a quest by myself, where in I've left everyone behind. "No journey is best left to oneself, even the journey to learn of what oneself is capable of..." There's no way that I can learn what I am capable of by myself. I have always been left to my own devices, to turn to myself for answers, and I've always felt that I've had the answers, but this time, I'm clueless, and within this time, I have lost someone that I truly cared about, lost my sense of faith in God, and at the same time, lost myself... I turned back to old methods, bottling up my fears and anguish, instead of talking to those that care about me, and would do anything for me... Which abruptly lead to those not believing in me, and therefore not wanting to help me...



I understand that it's merciless to keep all of this bottled up inside, but after 25 years of the same methods, it's hard to change, and it only leads to self destruction, which leads me to the very shoes I stand in today... I've once again single-handily demolished something that I tried to hold so deep, because of fear... A fear of myself, a fear to let myself out, a fear to open up, etc... Within the turmoil, I lost something highly important to me due to some inept fear of putting all of myself out there for one person to see, and that lead to my very own demise... What's so wrong with me that I can't put myself out there? Fear of being rejected? Fear of someone walking away? Fear of crying and showing weakness? Whatever it is, the only person that can help me conquer this is myself, with the help of God. God doesn't judge those that strongly believe in his faith. Maybe I have lost faith in myself, and God... The feeling of being at the bottom of the well without a rope to pull myself out, and yelling but not being heard. The feeling of being stranded in the middle of the desert being surrounded by nothing but dry, desert air... I know it takes time to put all of you out there, especially when you've been through so much pain in life, but in my own pain, I've caused pain to another, which makes me no better of a person than I was in the past, and is that truly fair to anyone else? No...



My faith in God is restored, and all that I had to do was take responsibility for what I did. I have to follow my word, and be able to open my own light, and give others to right to shine as well... I'm reminded of a quote by Marianne Williamson:


"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so? You are a child of God, small games do not work in this world. For those around us to feel peace, it is not example to make ourselves small. We were born to express the glory of god that lives in us. It is not in some of us, it is in all of us. While we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously give permission for others to do the same. When we liberate ourselves from our own fears, simply our presence may liberate others."



In turn, I would like to justly apologize to those I have hurt, and ask for your forgiveness in the hope that you will also fight against the inner demons that may one day hold you back from doing the right thing... I would also like to thank those that have been there for me, and continue to be there for me through thick and thin, and may God bless you and yours in the way that he has truly blessed me... Remember, all journeys in life are too large to adventure out on by yourself, make sure you take the best luggage, and that is friends and faith... Always smile, because they're contagious, and it's the best disease to spread... You can always correct a mistake, as long as you own up to it... Lastly, don't be afraid to put all of yourself out there, because you never know who may take an interest in what you have to think or say...


We'll see ya...

Riddle Me This...???

Since when did celebrities really decide that people that pay to come see their concerts wanted to hear them babble on and on about saving the whales, or not being prejudice against gypsies, or some other bullshit political agenda you're being paid to spew all over what's left of your fans? Seriously?!?! I read in today's paper that Madonna was booed by a crowd of 60,000 fans in Bucharest, Romania last night. I knew just by the title of the story that this was going to be something good, because nobody ever booes Madonna... That'd be like booing U2, which I do anyways, mainly because they suck, their music sucks, and apple sucks, which we all know how the Transitive Property works (A + B = C)... After reading the article, I couldn't help but laugh because she was booed because she was throwing out to the people that they should not hate the Roma's or "Gypsies" in their country because they are humans too... Really? Now, I'm a firm believer in the fact that you should not talk about something that you know ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about. However, you can talk about these things if:

a.) You're from that native country.

b.) You know about the history and you've previously supported this cause.

c.) You were at one time one of these people.

Let me run down the quick checklist and see if any of these apply to Madonna:

Born in Bay City, Michigan, therefore not from Romania. Fail.

Know about history of Gypsies? Obviously Fail.

Rich woman living in Hollywood from age 15, making more than any one person in the world. Fail.

Sorry Madonna, you just simply put FAILED! You can do your Cabala, sleep with A-Rod or Jeter or whoever the hell you want, but when it comes down to it, for the last 30 years, your music has sucked, you dress like a homeless woman, and you're like 70 years old... Face the facts there Favre, you're just not the go-to guy in this one anymore... People paid to hear you sing, not talk, so don't take the Nickelback in Cincinnati trip, just shut up and sing bitch...

Ahhhhh yes, another one of my favorites... You may remember this asshole from your "vote democrat or you're a racist" campaign. What's that? What's my favorite Kanye West moment? Hmmmmm, probably when he stated that "George Bush doesn't care about Black People" comment on national television. Now, don't get me wrong, there's a lot of things celebrities get away with because of the fame and fortune, but how he pulled this off was simply distasteful, and as a matter of fact, just pure haterified (copyright)... However, if I was part of the media after this was stated at a Hurricane Relief Benefit Fundraiser, I would have followed it up with this question: "Mr. West, who in fact does care about black people?" The only response I would receive however would be nothing... Because the statistics go to show that not only do white people not really care for black people, but shockingly, BLACK PEOPLE don't even care about BLACK PEOPLE!!! Therefore, I found this graph to further my exploration into this concern I have for what he stated:

Where do we move from here Kanye? Yeah, exactly... So not only does George Bush not care about black people, but neither do black people, so...

Therefore, I am puzzled as to why celebrities with all their fame and fortune believe that have an utter duty, to speak out against things that they know nothing about? One last person I had to examine though, just to further prove my point:

Vote or Die? That's like the opposite of what they want in Afghanistan. Vote And Die is the Afghani way! But really? Vote or Die? Why would I die if I don't vote? Is he insinuating that he's going to kill me if I don't vote? Am I clear if I do vote? Am I racist if I don't vote for Obama? So many questions left unanswered by 3 simple words... However, he also brings an ironic game piece to this checker board I call life... In America, convicted felons are NOT allowed to vote, correct? Correct! Now, when you are caught in possession of a concealed weapon when you do not have a Concealed Carry Permit, that is a felony correct? Correct! (Zingers, I know!) Now, let alone carrying the weapon illegally is bad, but what about shooting it in a club for no reason, illegal correct? Correct again my friend... Now, does this mean that P. Diddy, Daddy, Puffy, Puff Daddy whatever the fuck he goes by this month, is going to die, because he in fact is not allowed to vote? Interesting question...

I think the Defense rests... We'll See Ya!

This Just In!

From the papers to the television media, and my everyday life, processed through my very brain to the very few ears of the loyal readers that still keep an eye on my lame ass opinions, here's today's and the weeks top stories (as changed by me!)

So the "nation mourns" at the loss of Democratic Senator Ted Kennedy... Do we really? I don't... No offense, but I find it hard to wave a flag at half-mast when this man dies because he was such an "influence" in the Senate. By influence, do they mean alcoholic that got away with fraud, scams, and was an extreme alcoholic? We lose a soldier almost every day in Iraq, where the "TRUE HEROES" are, and we don't even fly the flag for them, so why this asshole? Ted Kennedy was not a True American, in fact, he wasn't even that good at his job in the Senate, he endorsed Obama, I mean come on, how good could he have been? I told my work that if I do not personally believe that we should fly the flag at Half-Mast, do we still have to do it? (Being a dumbocrat, she replied that "he was a Senator"), although I fought to the end (distracted her long enough to forget) and I conquered, so the flag flew high at National City in my "Good Riddance" to Ted Kennedy, the last of the remaining assholes that fucked America rotten, and had more trials than O.J. Simpson! We'll See Ya!

As not to fall short of any other exhilarating day at work, Monday I received a call from a customer that went as follows:

Me: Thank you for calling National City Liberty Township, this is Ryan, how can I help you?

Customer: (deep south accent) Yeah, I got one of them fee's for 'imsufficient funds on my account and I'm just wondering where the hell it came from??

Me: Ok, what's your social security number, let me look you up...

Customer: ***-**-***

Me: I think we're missing a number sir, is there another number on the end?

Customer: *

Me: Thank you, let me pull you up here in our system...

(PAUSE)

Me: Ok sir, it looks like the fee came from a check that was written off of your account when the funds weren't available...

Customer: Yeah, I know that, but why 'dere a fee for them?

Me: Well, writing a check when you know that the funds aren't there is a felony, because it's technically check fraud, which is illegal, and because that was returned there's a fee from the bank for attempting to process a bad check, and from the company you wrote the check too.

Customer: Well that's bullshit man, I mean, I've been on unemployment for a year now, and just filed an extension, and I don't have but like 3 dimes to my name right now, and I have 2 hernia's, and I just didn't get my extension yet...

Me: I can understand that, but it's still illegal, and there's still a fee from the bank that can't be waived, because you knowingly admitted that you wrote the check without the funds in the account, so there's nothing we can do.

Customer: Bullshit man, I hate this God damn bank shit... (click)

After this phone call, I had to sit back and feel bad for the guy, because all he's got is change, which is all that was promised by Obama, so really, he got screwed. I almost felt like telling him that he could work at McDonald's flipping fries, because I did it for a summer and made $11 an hour, and I guarantee that's more money than he'd ever see in his lifetime from the sound of education level through his speech...

In breaking news, the coroners have ruled that Michael Jackson's death was a homicide! They are currently looking at a suspect named Ziploc or the "Plastic Killer" who they believe is the primary suspect in the death of Pop Star Michael Jackson. Really? So they're going to consider it a homicide because he's had more surgery's than Pamela Anderson which has to be some kind of Guinness World Record! Did you hear that because 99% of Michael Jackson is plastic, they're going to melt him down and mold him into Lego's so that kids could finally play with him for a change! Glad your gone, sincerely not concerned, Ryan Hoopes!

Sorry to keep it short today, and hopefully it brought a good enough laugh for you, but we will be back next time with more!

We Don't Want A White Knight, We Need A White Knight...

It takes an economic melt down as such for me to get so upset, and so frustrated that I would ever consider changing my political party affiliation. It's not like I'm going from Republican to Democrat or anything of that nature, but as a matter of fact, I'm so torn that neither party deserves my backing. It's a terrible thing when you are so torn between political affiliations that you think of giving up all hope in all parties. I know this seems like it comes out of left field, but in all honesty, this has been going on since my great white hope in the Bush Administration.

I recently read Glenn Becks new book, "Common Sense - A Case Against An Out Of Control Government" and I must say, he opened my eyes to a lot of things that I didn't want to believe about my current political affiliation. Not only that, but made sense of things that other parties were taking part in. After finishing the book I have decided to resign my standing with the Republican party and seek political enlightenment from upcoming candidates. Until someone comes up and practices what they in fact preach, I refuse to take part in the political game. Glenn Beck said it right that American's have been burned too many times, that we in fact don't know who to believe anymore, and all we need is for America, as a whole to take a stand against our over-spending Government. The day should never come that the people fear the Government, but rather vice versa. I'm not saying that Obama is to blame for the GM crisis, or anything going on with the economy, but he is definitely not the right person at all for this position. He would however, be the perfect scape-goat for a runaway Government. They could have had him run and helped him out along the way to make him the fall guy for their corrupt ways. They will probably say that they had no idea he was this inexperienced for the crisis' that happened, and therefore they will elect someone else, and keep spending and spending...

Don't get me wrong however, I still despise Obama and the ways and methods he used to get elected. The voters should be intelligent people, not just bums and hobo's off the streets. They have never participated in elections before, but a pack of Newport's and a sausage Mcmuffin later, their your next campaign officials! If this is what the United States has come to, then I'm sorry, but we're completely screwed. In a country that was founded on such hardships and massive bloodshed, we should be the model of efficiency and uphold only the just of laws, but instead we're trying to spread the cluster fuck (pardon my Spanish) that is our Government model. And we wonder as a civilization why the Iraq and Afghanistan war isn't over yet? We're (us) trying to force OUR Government model on other countries and convince them that it's the best. How do you figure? We're in a God only knows how many trillion dollar deficit with China, which is practically going to be the new United States if we don't dislodge our head's from our asses, we spend money to make money (that's like taking all the money you have and doubling down in Vegas on a blackjack game with a 20 in hand. (For those of you non-card players, that's the riskiest thing I've ever heard of, and has never been accomplished by any non-card counter). Side note: of all things that wouldn't be good at counting cards, it would be our Government.

Did our Founding Fathers not fight the Revolutionary War to solve the problems of too much Governmental control? Did they not shed the blood of a true patriot? Did they not say "enough is enough?" Where are we now? 233 years later and we have almost completely abolished everything that they created. Is that just? Is that what this country was founded on? I will tell you when it all changed. It all changed when Big Corporations needed support and taxation money from new small businesses. It started when the Government started to "bailout" big companies because their executives need big yachts, huge houses and fancy cars and the Government felt that they were exactly right! It started when "God" was taken out of the Pledge of Allegiance. These are far and few between I know, but this is what we have come down to... This is what "America" is now... We're a country that wants to be held by the hand and told what to do and so the Government is doing exactly that. Can we blame them? We call ourselves individuals and say that we're "free," but instead we're held hostage by our own Government. For Christ sake, they took "God" out of the Pledge of Allegiance, because they said that it interfered with the difference between Church and State! This country was founded on CHRISTIAN beliefs, and trust me, I'm about as Christian Light as you can be, and I know that Christians believe in GOD, which until I stand corrected, if you're founded on Christian beliefs, then God is your creator! The bullshit that you can't say "Under God" in a Government statement, that people have fought and died for is complete and utter insanity! How can we let our own Government, that founded these document 233 YEARS AGO say that they're going to overrule this decision? Why don't you just curse in God's name in it, so people don't think you're partial. I don't care if people of other descents live in this country (the ones that work and pay taxes that is), but they have the right to do their own religion, but when you're on this soil, you're following the rules established in OUR country! As that goes, that's all personal belief, but also a belief that most Americans hold true to God himself.

My problem with our Government, going back to the Bush Administration, is the fact that we're cutting Big Business taxes, and giving them tax breaks, and helping them out, while failing the small businesses that have the opportunity in the future to grow. Is America no longer the "Land of Opportunity?" We pay the big guys the big salaries and tell the other small business men/women that they need to support big business... How is this fair? Obama steps in with this "Hope" and "Change" mentality, expecting us all to accept these gifts for which he brings, which is basically to buy us out, and in return give us more Government control. We don't need MORE Government control, rather more individual expression. We need the opportunity to start our own small business ventures... What ever happened to that "Melting Pot" leg that America was standing on? We're not culturally diverse anymore, it's Whites vs. Blacks vs. Hispanics. The only reason it's like that is because of racist organizations like the NAACP and ACLU that protect the true criminals and turn colored people against whites. They make us out to be monsters, when in reality, that shit ended 30 or 40 some years ago! We owe you nothing anymore. You have to walk on your own at some point, can't keep crawling.

The thing that really set me off with Obama was the Mass. Police Officer/Professor situation. I know that anyone reading this has already caught wind of the situation so I won't further explain or give you an abridged version, however, the fact that President Obama, without hesitation said that the Officer acted "stupidly" was WAY out of line with me. Was he there? The fact that Obama said he was "friends" with the professor should have been more than enough for him to know that he shouldn't open his mouth about the situation. Of course any "friend" is going to take your side whether you're right or wrong, and if I were that Officer, I would have told Obama to shove it up his ass when he asked me to come enjoy some beers at the White House. It's racism like that, on THEIR part that will not allow this country to move further. Obama being black holds no regard for why I do not like him as our President. I didn't vote for him, and as a civilian and a voter, that is all I could do to keep him out of office. There's only so much one can do, and I did it. Not to say that McCain/Palin would have been a better choice, but experience wise, they would have been a little better of a choice. I can remember learning in History about the "of the people, by the people, for the people" readings, but now it seems we're in a world of "of the Government, by the Government, For the Government" and who cares about the people putting up the money for this country just to stay afloat! We owe so much money to foreign countries that like the polls are saying, our kids will unfortunately have to endure and suffer. I was never worried about receiving Social Security, because I knew that that was going to run out quicker than my paycheck usually does, so I invested in a 401k, but how screwed are our children going to be? By the time this corrupt Government that owns us gets done taking our money for taxes, we will not be able to save anything. Our country is such a horrible position with spending, and the consumers are in such horrible debt, yet our Government tells us and convinces us that we need to stimulate the economy and get out there and SPEND, SPEND, SPEND! How the hell is that going to change anything? If you go and spend, and I go and spend, aren't we cancelling out each other? Especially when I'm spending on products from foreign countries, and you're the sending the money to them to pay for that good for bringing it in? Where is there Government saving in this equation? Who's doing our taxes and auditing here, Kay Rogers? (BURN!) I see commercials on television for Chevrolet, and Obama says, "I hope if you're thinking about buying a new car, you will buy an American car!" Really? Why? Because they can carry 254 passengers, pollute the environment with terrible emissions, and get about 10 mpg? All for around a grand total of $30,000? Geez! I don't know how I ever overlooked American Car Companies!?!? God forbid I pay $19,000 for a sporty, gas efficient (36mpg), Honda that was coincidentally made in Columbus! I don't know how I never saw this before! Right Obama, buy American! Dead on, SPEND SPEND SPEND! This whole "I'll bail you out" campaign was nothing but complete and utter bullshit, and now you're choking on the very words you preached to the American public that voted for you. So far, I still see the bums and hobos out in Cincinnati begging for money, in fact there's more than ever, and I still see a huge increase in foreclosures. Where is this promise of change now? You failed us just like the Bush Administration, the Clinton Administration, and the many Administrations that will follow you... The only difference is, you don't even get an "A" for a valiant effort. You get an "F" for Failed the American Working Class!

What we really need for change is a movement. A movement by the American people! We all need to take a stand, realize that the Government has burned us far too many times, and we need to set the record straight that we will no longer stand for the "take from the poor, give to the rich" mentality in Washington! We need to pick up on things when Presidential Candidates come in preaching that they're going to "fundamentally transform America!" Here's a key piece of History that you may or may not have seen (being born and raised in Africa that is), IT'S ALREADY HAPPENED! IT'S CALLED THE DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE!

I do have to take this time to apologize to my friend Heather. I was stricken with disbelief when I, myself decided to resign from the Republican Party for the aforementioned reasons, but she was right, you can either make the change happen for yourself, and get out there, and find what's best for you, or you can sit back and take the Political Propaganda. Either way, if you sit back and do nothing, you have no right to bitch, so consider this my "up to bat," because I'm on deck, with 2 outs, and bases loaded in the 9th in a tie game situation. Trust me, it's not going to end well for our Government...

I'm not trying to sell you on this idea, because you may be perfectly content with what's happening currently. You may have voted for Obama, and be happy with the changes (nothing) he's done since he's been in office, but if you aren't, then I urge you, not force you to take a step back and do something to make a change in Washington. Let them know that you're tired of being pushed around! Fight for what you believe in, and stop taking the food handed to you by these corrupt corporations and their friends, what we call our American Government!

Where is our White Knight I ask? Where is our White Knight...

Someone I Never Wanted To Meet...

I was never one to religiously believe in things like Karma and things of that nature, but today, I caught a couple of glimpses of her, and I must say, there's no worse feeling than Karma taking some pokes at you. As most of you already know, I'm not the most committed person when it comes to relationships, and I joke about that a lot, because I've had so many different damn girlfriends. Although, it seems like in this last month, I've been stabbed in the back by friends, I've met the female version of me, and I lost one opportunity because I'm an asshole... As mad as I really want to be, I'm starting to realize that all of this could have been avoided had I not taken too much on at one time. Well, 2 of the 3 that is, one of them just was misfortune, and I will never let people hook me up with coworkers or friends of theirs. As for the friendship, you gotta keep your friends close and your enemies closer, because when you're up, you're enemies are dressed in friends clothing, but when you're down, they reveal their true colors and you'll end up losing a lot more than you anticipated. As for meeting myself in the female version, that was the misfortune.

I never really realized how shitty I treat my girlfriends, and girlfriends that I intend to one day have (if that makes any sense). I thought this girl had some real special qualities and we took a great liking to each other, and even though I heard background noise that she had other things going on beyond my field of vision, I let it go because I just enjoyed being with her so much... As things progressed, I felt things getting more serious, and then I text her, call her, and no response... Then out of the blue, a week later, I get a text, and I figure maybe she was busy, and she said I was "crowding" her during exams, and she's stressed, etc... So I tell her to text me when she's got time to hang out, and well, that's never anymore, and I realized, she's a 2 month leaser... Exactly what Hoopes has always done, and he got part of his own medicine. Wow... That sucks, lost a best friend, got stabbed in the back, got played, etc, all in a one month period...

So as I think about all of this, I get the balls to call up an old friend, because I sit and think about all that this girl has done for me, and how I've treated her like shit, and pushed her aside, and never thought I cared for her, but she's always, ALWAYS been in the back of my mind... I text her and tell her that when she gets some time to chat, I want to talk to her about something... She said she just got done with finals, and she took her nursing board tests, and she's going to Florida and she'll text me when she gets back. She got back and Tuesday I ask her if she wants to hang out, and she said she doesn't think her man would like that...

BOOM!

In the times that I've treated her like shit, pushed her aside, and never made any valiant effort to show her that I truly liked her, she found someone that did make her feel the way I realized she made me feel... Special... And now, it's all over... The lonesomeness is settling in... Starting to realize how this story ends... What a twisted web we weave... We'll See Ya...